22 August 2013 till today huh ---> 29 January 2014
Go like a diary then.
29 Januay 2014, Cloudy.
What a long time I didn't fly in my wonder world. :) Ridiculous huh it's my own world ! I guess you know the reason why I don't have time to come over here... Yes I'm seriously totally f*ckingly SICK... Physically, Mentally, Spiritually...I see myself as a loser. I lose all the games - my dances, my friends, my study, my everything and I screw them all. I see no colors; I only know black and white. I sense no thing; I sense cruelness of myself. I feel no thing; I feel clueless of my life. Meanwhile I hate myself. I hate, I hate and I HATE. I hate myself being so weak! I surrender once...I cry all over nights and days Killing myself is not a choice anymore but a must! Lots of negative thoughts appears in my mind huh. I start to reject people. I refuse to join crowded. I don't even dare to look into others' eyes and this is just NOT SO ME... When the hell me Ong Jee Teng afraid of seeing people and look into their eyes ?! If you ever know me, you will see one thing which is the first and only one action that I will DO when I talk to you face to face is I will LOOK INTO your eyes and define how true your words are !
Well well well... now the sickness screws me over, and it is WINNING. It wins my life. It successfully make me become more and more arrogant and being unthinkable and sometimes not respect others! It has changed me from what I used to be till I feel lazy to greet people. Huh... sickness, you think I will put this in my heart? I'm sick of you ! You don't know how much the eagerness of mine to tear you into parts and throw you into the sea feeding the sharks! I hate you ! From the day you have me over, things that I hear from people are so tasteless... "Don't eat seafood etc etc ...." " Drink more water..." "Aoww what happen to your face?..." " You have a nice skin before !!" Aowww... Could you guys stop telling me this and that?!
Don't ever blame on me for I'm being so rude and negative if you never put yourself into my shoes ! If you were me, tell me what will you do !
Pictures below are not purposely for frightening you or showing how pity am I. Just a sharing. And do protect your mom, your sisters, or your girlfriends or your ladies grandmom aunties sister-in-laws neighbours whoever whoever and ever and ever...... from skin diseases. There are so much of bitters that you can't imagine. Or you can see it as I'm rejecting you to have me as your girlfriend (Well, who will want to kiss this kind of skin !!! Don't cheat yourself or trying to be nice to me ! You know my name! )
Apart from there, I'm here want to send my full of gratitude and thankfulness for those who always stand by my side. aoww ! BOTH sides ! :)
Thank you. I can't have today if you guys didn't lend me your hands.
Thank you. I Love You.
So far now my skin is getting better day by day. I eat medicine everyday. ( Dad, you gotta KNOW this!) The infections on my body are all cleared - HONESTLY:) As you can see from the first three Pictures, that time was the most critical time ! ... owhh nightmare ! Thanks Lord ! Now it's cleared ! Currently, I only have to spend some time on my face. Doctor said the dots on my face was called as ACNES -.-' Well, I take it pretty much as PIMPLES -.-' LOL ~!!!
NOW, I can smile :)
Secretly telling you, I spent almost 4 K to cure my skin from my age of 18 till now. So, don't ever get into this trouble as you have me as example :) :)
So if you suddenly found this page and if you have any skin related problems, you can visit this clinic which is nearby Berjaya Time Square :) You can reach there by walking too ! It's pretty much near !
P/s : don't expect you will meet polite nurses or doctors! They are failed in courtesy course ! :) And do prepare more than 250 bucks to pay for the fee as it's freaking expensive !!
------ >> Ting Skin Specialist
Just give it a try :) rather than none :)
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