A day in my long-break

 "You only know sitting sitting sitting sitting and facing your laptop. See the plates and cups on your desk. When are you going to clean it up and wash it? blablablablablabla..........."

"Yes yes yes I see all those stuffs on my desk... yes yes yes I will sweep the floor later... yes yes yes I will tidy it up later......yes yes yes... yup yup yup......." 

Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuu !! Typical mom and daughter huh. Well mom you just couldn't blame on me. This two-months-holidays was way too long for me. This time was different with last year. Last year I had only one month for rest as I shared a month for my pre-practicum. Look at this year, I had ngam2 two months !!! (wow!!! heaven!!! like I've never had this kind of long break before hahaha) I was getting bored sitting in front of laptop too. Everyday I gotta overuse my eyes seeing this and watching that. Seriously I was so boring ! urghhhh!!! kill me please or "hello....Anyone out there feel like want to change this position with me for a day? ermmm...or a couple of hours? or a few minutes? Me is waving my hands up in the air now....!"

Well today I felt enough of being asked to tidy up here and there ~.~ so I decided to re-arrange my bookshelf. I exchanged the books which I had put it on bookshelf a year ago with the books that I had been keeping in the big box. Right at the moment, I felt a bit sarcasm about myself to know about what was actually the first initiative making me to buy all those books in the bookshop on that time. Am I a bookworm? ermmm .... a deep question... what about saying me as a "novelworm"?

I liked to read the book with good starting and happy ending. I could endure with the "quite okay" 's opening BUT not the 'quite ok' 's ending. I knew I knew everything in our life was unpredictable and unexpectable. I just couldn't let those characters ended up just like that :( Hrmmm... I would be the worse writer ever I guess. Haiz... just a story what. Let it came well ended well :p " you happy me happy " " good for you good for me " :p ...... Ok I knew this was way too far to be a standard writer. -.-' Would try to change this behavior...{This world is way too dangerous, go back to your own planet}

Guess what I've found during the "process" -.-' :p :p

I found the list of my choices before entering university ! I just couldn't believe Education (TESL) was the only educational item in my list!!! And it was the first!! And and and, if I was not being selected to further my study in UKM, where would I be? oh my guann yinnnn ! Am I meant to be here ? Plus, I might be a business woman in future if I was failed to be chosen into educational field. Wow suddenly I felt so blessed ! Thank you !

A little promise to myself :) I will study well in the coming semester :) I had found the eagerness of old Ong Jee Teng (before entering U) during my "cleaning process" today. I knew how much she wanted to be a successful U student and dancer! Well, the best thing would be the elimination from returning PTPTN loan after graduate ! :p Heyyy... Don't show me that face -.-' It isn't a "must be"... I just wanted to motivate myself to study well and never let my family down :) I knew the important of RATIONAL :) AND KEEP HOPING!!

Bye ! :p 

She Said

'You must be have your own style of meal control.' said Hui Huan.

Awwww this was first time ever I heard about this view. I had no idea why she said so but I was quite curious about this hahahaha as I knew I've never wanted to control my meal :p I ate whatever I wanted to eat :p But why ??

'No wonder you have a great body posture. Look at your way of sitting. Haaaa! And the way you walking is the most obvious one ! Seems like you merge every move of yours into dancing. How did you do that ? Don't you feel tired ?' 

a????????' since when I did all those things ??? Omggg I've never noticed it =.=' I even ate twities, oreo, ferrero chocolate etc and soft drinks before sleep ~.~ Thanks for telling me as I never put eyes on it. 

Well, I admitted that I was so afraid of gaining weight. I was the person who hated fat layer. I couldn't see my own weight exceed 45kg. I would properly gone mad till I couldn't recognize who was who. Hahaha. Therefore, during this two-months-holidays, I really did force myself to do exercise. Hrmmm in my own room or in the living room, once I on the music, 'move your body shake your body yeoww ciliiii chacha ! ' I had  to do this because my current weight is 45 kg. So if I wanted to eat all those rubbish snack in the middle of the night while watching movies, I gotta do something ! :p Besides that, I hated people saying me 'chubby'

Have a nice and healthy days ! 

*still in the holidays mood*

 I miss dancing ! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Grandmum

9-6-2013

The date my grandmum passed away.

Could be said that she was the luckiest one. She was the last grandparents who left us in this world. Oh I missed my both side grandparents so much :( I won't have any chance to call anyone 'a gong' 'a po' 'wai gong' 'wai po'... Feel so sad T.T

Guess what, on 9/6/2013, I had a wechat call with my cousin. We both were actually planing the date to go back to Triang to pay a visit to my grandmum. We picked the date; we tried to get the transport; we asked about the days of our holidays etc... hrmmm... who knew... at that night, I received the call from my cousin who stayed at Triang. She cried and said, 'wai po zhou le' ( grandmum is gone). I had no idea what to do on the spot. I quiet and quiet and quiet. I remembered I was actually need to answer my roommate's a question about an issue(totally forgot what she've asked). But, I'm quiet. I'm quiet. Still quiet.

A moment later, I answered my roommate's question then only I tell her about my grandmum's bad news. She was having a big shock...hrmm...rather than mine... and kept asking me whether I am ok.  huuu... sure I'm ok. I'm quiet. Quieting. Quieting.... Soon after she went to bathroom, my tears burst ! "What am I doing? What should I do? Grandmum passed away and I'll be sitting my first paper by tomorrow!! What am I gonna do??" Quietly...and shed away my tears when my roommate came in. Quietly. And started to have a normal conversation with her. Till almost 10 pm something, I'm totally out of idea ...:( I  asked her opinion of what should I do? Should I go back? Should I stay? I had only one grandmum. She was my last grandparents! and I had exam on the next day ! clueless ... and helpless... :( and she answer me, "go back sweetheart" 

Thanks :)

Almost midnight. I was trying to swallow all those f*king annoying slides and notes and stuff and put it into my brain. I couldn't sit well. I couldn't. My grandmum thing kept going appear in my mind. I was not dare to make a call to my mum. I didn't know how to comfort her. Eventually, I did make a call and she told me that daddy and her were on their way back to Triang. They calmed me down and asked me not to worry much, they could handle all those stuffs and they promised me that they would tell grandmum that I couldn't attend the funeral because I was in the exam season. Tears again :'(

On the next day, brother Peter called and asked me to prepare to go home :)

At first, we planned to have dinner first before departing. When I told him that I needed to see doctor because of my skin, he changed the plan and decided to bring me to see doctor first on the next day. And we back to Cheras, staying one night and rest :) The next day? I planned to see that handsome doctor actually. hrmm...kinda disappointed because he was not around... :(

We reached Triang and gave bow to my grangmum. Then I backed to home for taking bath and rest. We required to get ready before 6pm for the praying and king king kang kang funeral. huuu..kinda stress actually. Well, most of the free time, I would go back to my home (next one house of my grandmum's) to do some revisions.

Seriously I had no idea what was I reading about on that time. sigh.., tension and stress! But I really wanted to do something for my grandmum :( ok ok ok I keep telling myself everything will be ok :)

Here are some photos taken when we are free...

Still smiling because I am grown up adult and granddaughter :) I know grandmum is very fine and well now because she is staying with my grandfather now :) <3

CITRA-COLOUR :P

This was the very first time I joined Citrawarna !
There's only one word that I could use to describe the event-"Crowded!"
There were a lot of dancers and choreographers. All of them were showing their true colors and presenting it through those flow patterns of dances and the "BOMBASTIC" props and make up. From this event, I learned how huge a performance could really be. It involved thousands of dancer on stage! Rhetorically I was opening my eyes and let these people flooding into my both pupils.

For this night, we were required to perform three dances which were Anak Kampung, VMY, and Endang. One thing that I felt lucky was that all of these dances was not difficult to be learned :) And I did really enjoy it. What a good and correct decision that I'd made huh:) Big applause to myself ^^ And of course the main reason that made me happy was although the movements of these dances were not complicated, still it could make me sweating like hell~

And Y.E.S... itchiness still still burdening and bothering me so much!
And I was so frustrated ! I'm here wanna say sorry to all my buddies because I've shown my moody emotion to you which I shouldn't do :(
But I really couldn't stand with this itchiness :(
I'm so sorry guys.

huuuuuuwuuuuuuuuuuuhuuuuu.....

HIAK! The joyfullest  moment along this rehearsal was the evening of that day! We could have our time beside of the lake and enjoyed the connection with the natural. And of course we had done a lot of camwhoring :)

Well I would definitely remember these moments.
So far we both knew that  we left only one year to stay together and dance together :/
And this thing did bother me lots because some of us will be leaving me soon :(

If I could have the chance again, I won't waste any minute any second and moment staying with you guys :) you guys were so amazing for me and time was too short for us to share the happiness :)

Degree study life was the only time and period that we could go crazy like nobody's business :)
So, never put craziness aside whenever you got the chance !

Enjoying myself while writing :)

School Visiting ~!

Hey ~! Guess what~! I'm future teacher ~! ^_^ And you need to believe this :)

We were visiting a primary school at Subang Jaya. Actually this was one of our course works which carried 20 % in our assessment.  By name it's our course work, still needing us to pay 20 bucks per head.sigh -.-

Anyway, I really enjoyed the moment playing with those kids. One thing that made me feel so unbelievable was those kids could speak English very fluently. It was totally different with the kids that I met in my hometown area. Well I admit that my English was really awful when I was at their age. I thought it might be due to different awareness of knowing English is important for people nowadays between city area people and rural area people. Hrmm... for me, learning English language was so much fun! :) Knowing English made me easily connecting with the world.

I am teacher-to-be.
Yes.. This is my dream.
I like to teach...I like to draw...I like colorful stuff...

But, what will make my drawing (personal building) successfully being shown up to others?
yes the children :)
Their minds their hearts their souls are so pure till I wish I can stop them by forbidding them to contact with all those dark and evil things.
At least, by my strength and afford, I wish I could still  keep their mind and soul clean :)


Why I have this kind of thought?
hrmm....I faced a lot of it when I was student.
"It's dark time, dark time Harry" (HP's quote :P)

Anyway I will try to get rid of myself from keep thinking those dirty and tricky stuffs.
and you know these minds do bother me so much and  make me stop sensing people's heart.
ouhh which I seriously don't want this shit to happen anymore.

Go teacher ! :)

My Calligraphy Choreograph

For me, this was the best piece from me among the others since I knew dance.
I was actually challenging my self ; I tried to make it by my own. I was searching for the music ; I did the music editing ; I was looking for the costumes ; I found the props ; I figures out the simple steps ; I took the initiative to learn the calligraphy which the soul of it was definitely hard to grasp. I wanted to make it real. I wanted to DANCE IT OUT ! And guess what????!! I DID IT !
I was so happy when the time people told me that "omg... I've never seen this kind of performance before in UKM :) "

" Thank you. Sincerely from me. I know I still have so much things to learn :)"

When I was still exciting about the feedback, there came a heart-broken news...And I hoped I got the chance to chose not to accept it.
Right after the performance, Mr Kong passes away. He was my calligraphy teacher in my secondary school. He taught me lots :(
from calligraphy to life..
from life to world...
from world to values...
from values to sincerity ....

And he asked zero cent for the lessons.
He said, 'I am just giving you my knowledge which I have learned it by myself. I don't have any teacher to teach me those :) I learn it all by myself. Because as I know, if there's a word appears in my heart, then I can sure that I can write it out perfectly. This is what we call - face the real inside you.'

Thank you Mr Kong for your kindly sharing :)
I believed you were flying to another world now which was more peaceful and pure clean :) You didn't have to worry the conflicts in this world anymore.

I'm giving you my best wishes :)

By the way, I'm here wanted to say thank you to two more people... :) opss.. actually three nope actually more than three :p
Ok first, thanks to Kak Lin and all ABs because you all let me staying with you before the performance :) I felt so much loved :) Thanks <3

Next, thanks to Abang Wan for accompany me at BB there :) hahaha. And I knew you would definitely forget all the kanji that I had taught you :p anyway, Thank you !


Next? Fine... It's my 3 biji and SuzannA who arranged me into this performance -.-
They planned it. They discussed it. They talked about it. And THEY DECIDED IT -----> without my knowledge !!! When the time I got into room, they told me the result of their LITTLE DISCUSSION. And I was like HUH? WHAT HAPPEN???????????????????? ' I have an event. And what dance can you perform? ok we have just helped you figuring out. You do this and this and this and this...... @.@' fuhhhhhh...

opsss!!!
Butterfly was so pretty SILLY and evil! :p
Actually I'm more to male today :)

I'm Yin Tai who are the classmate of Shan Bo :)

Buying New Shirt :p

Just wanna show my shirt that I just bought !
and I grabbed it without second thought!

Kolej Keris Mas Dinner 2013

It was a two-days performance. For me, it was just a quite boring dinner :) Sorry lah... I never mean it ~ But I did feel this way. So how? Come lah I let you bite :p *Come come give me your ears ----> Actually, my heart was not there while performing on stage. I didn't really enjoy the whole performances. 

BUT!! I got the but :p There were somebody that I dance for :)

Like... Winnie, Alyssa, Stephina, and some other Tiong Hwa members.

My Tiong Hwa badge was not able to turn up because it was Friday...

Everybody had already gone back to their hometown. For voting maybe? I hadno idea.hahaha. For what I knew was they were actually trying to escape this dinner :) And I see no reason that  I will escape it, I DID pay for it -.-' ehh don't misunderstanding that I'm $.$ girl. Just because we had already seriously and truly paid it at the beginning of the semester-.-' and I could enjoy this big dinner with Winnie :) and Winnie could watch me dancing :) yes this was my sincere purpose to attend the dinner and make me nodding my head to agree perform in the night :)

hahahaha!

I enjoyed my second day more than my first day in this dinner... It's because I knew more KKMers on the second day rather than the first day. :p Yeahhh....It's time to camwhoring again :p Sorry for burdening your eyes :P

And see~!!! who were they??????

Teslians!!! Actually I had no idea why they could attend our dinner. hahahaha. Well, who care?! We are happy go lucky English teacher :p

hhahaha!

It's time to gwiyomi! :p

I like our pics !
What say you?? :p