So... it's not midnight now... what now? I realized that I can't write a post in blog comfortably in the middle of the night ANYMORE. If you know me enough you ought to know that I only do "work" under the moonlight. Yes, every WORK. I'm frustrated. Because of that damn practical stupid thing which will be going to "consume" my entire 4 months = 16 weeks = 64 days straight this year. I am so nervous and tension about it. For once, I can barely sleep.
I have to admit that I am not really into teaching. I DO love teaching. It's just, I feel there's something wrong about it. I feel something is missing. Yet, it seem right to everybody to think that I'm actually capable of it. -.-' Though I have no idea since when I have convinced them that I can do it.
How much I want to convince myself like I convinced the others. Funny. I am pretty sure that I have my own approaches to teach people, to make people understand a certain concept and to let them to realize how important of own that piece of "paper" (certificate) in this realistic world.
I'm fucking STUCK right now!
Practical is suck! I know it's immature that I say it now as it still has three weeks time for it to become real. And probably I will regret that I ever complained about it (which I wish to). I don't know... I wish I have a time machine to transport myself to 5 months later and see how am I doing...(daydreaming). What if I couldn't speak in front of the students? What if I was being judged and rejected by the other teachers? What if the students were actually better than me? What if I couldn't make friends ? What if the students couldn't understand my lesson?
WHAT IF I FAILED MY PRACTICAL?????
Urghhh... Good luck to me yes?
