So how should I feel?
just done the MMP things...
what was the next?
yeah... study stuff...
Well before doing physically and mentally and emotionally preparation, let's revise what I had done during these two weeks...
For the first week, I was so desperate! The freaking point was that I found out I was all alone along the PC course...I was so sad on that time. Why I was left behind? Or am I too good in hiding myself? And there was one thing that I felt sorry to sir - I forgot to tell him that I was going home instead of attending the BTN...Yup...that was my fault...
Erm.. It didn't mean that I can't face the people all alone. I just do not want to do so. Firstly, of course due to family matter. My grandpa was just passed away. And we have to do the praying for him for seven weeks. Honestly I was yet come out from the sad mood. Someone who I loved for 21 years was leaving me. Secondly, it was also because of family matter. My serious-daddy kept on calling me and asking my condition in the hostel. Yes I was all alone. And u know the answer?
" yeah.. i'm fine ..." " yup.. i've locked the door well"..."i'll take my meal later"..." i can't decide the date to back home yet..."
So in order to calm him down...decided was made...
For the second week, the orientation week started!
WOWWW... so many juniors. I was holding pc pusat pose and I was in "cenderamata's group". I had to take good care of KKM 's dancers so that they would be able to perform their best on the stage.
Sleep less...work lots... bath less... talk lots...I was just fine with all these stuffs as i promised in " pc applicant form". In the provided column, I answered that I would give my " whole-hearted support" to the program. So? I'll do my best. But you can guess, that the condition wasn't under our control.
Eventually, I learned to calm myself down and try to smile when facing somebody who were annoying. Yup. She was annoying and she is so annoying. Well can't she sense it ?erm... maybe my name was quite working on her which was good to know. Let's don't talk about her right here. This was just not good for my dreamyworld.
Within the orientation week, I made friend with elder felo and new felo. I found that I could talk well with elder felo who always putting "face" on his face. And I able to meet up our new felo too! Hrmm.. I don't really into him.
At last, the most excited moment during orientation was KKM won the first prize in the Malam Percikan Seni 2012". I couldn't believe it when the emcee announced the result.
yeahh!!! we got it!!!
^_^ HAPPYYYYYYYYY...
On the other hands, I had learned how to play bowling. Bowling was such a good activity. Well all I knew was we just needed to spot the direction accurately .. and then strike it !!!!
go! ha!
And guess what ! Today we went to play bowling again. Shadow of Shima was in my mind on that time. You know what, I didn't clap my hand much for the whole game -.-' I was so hungry. Why didn't I take dinner?
take dinner with who?
her? him? they?
i got no mood...
i got no mood...
i got no mood...
to pretending....
Don't push my away to someone i hate....
I hate pretending...
Don't push me there.. please... stay with me...
Anyway... I was so happy that I finally felt the team!
Even just a little, I would feel enough...
"sometime just don't be so 'me'......I would feel better"
so here start my study life.... go butterfly!
You have to experience the life then only u can have your charming wings....!
