LOST

I LOST...

BUTTERFLY LOST....

Free Me !

I miss you so badly.
I like the new application - CUBIE Messenger
It let us to communicate and interact with each other at the same room.
I feel the warmth.

I want to go home.
I want to study.
I want to talk to you.
I want to see you even you are in hospital right now.
I want to have my breakfast, my lunch and dinner with you.
I want stay in my room throughout the day and night.
I want to breathe the air that could fresh my lung.
I want to be alone.
I want to watch movie.
I want someone to listen to me.
I want someone to buy me an ice-cream.
I want to dance in the way I want.
I want to read a book.
I want to play piano.
I want to ride motor.
I want to drive car.
I want to taste the freedom.
I want to play with nephew.

I hate,when somebody using the dance to hurt me.
I hate, when somebody is trying to make me the way they want me to.
I hate, when somebody asking for more while they are actually taking for granted.
I hate, when somebody taking my passion too easy.
I hate.
I hate. I hate. I HATE.

I hate when I'm hating.
The most annoying part is,
I have to follow the the clues of the one who hurt me the most.
Funny, right?


I want to be Butterfly.
A happy butterfly.
Just FLY.

I want to be mermaid.
Zero worries.
Just SWIM.

I miss the spring season.
when I sense the fragrant.
of the flowers.

Free me please.

I know what are the reasons that I'm writing this.
My space.

If Your Heart's Not In It

 "If Your Heart's Not In It"

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind (And there's nothing that I can do
To stop me losin' you)
I can't make you change your mind (If your heart's not in it)

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

SENSELESS

I am Senseless Ting ...
Always...
I am proud of making it my name...

Only Human

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything's okay

How Could I Forgive You?

I was speechless...
and..
I am speechless....

You were pretending...
and
You are pretending.

 I felt tired.
and
I feel tired....

Chances were given..
When your voice came to me...

 

And,
I don't know...
I was actually making wrong decision...
I was giving the chance for you to hurt me...

" You are innocent." somebody said.

" No, I am the silly one. " I said.

I feel numb... for every little thing.

Enough...

Take off your mask...

You won't gain my forgiveness...

Ever...

I'm worth with what I have...

At least for now...

You...please stay away from me...

before I fight back...

I don't want to see your face...

Even a second....

Anymore...

Shall we?

hrmmm shall we?

Forgiveness?

NO.